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familiar FamiliarTeddy the Pomeranian
played by OOC NameVodka
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Post by Charani Delacour on Jan 28, 2023 0:25:35 GMT -7
His heart would not accept defeat. His brain twisted and turned to make things work. Even as he was shoved away. I didn’t mean too. The same words as happened on that day in the park. It hurt. The hurt was fine.
He didn’t care if he hurt. He wanted it. He wanted this man’s love. He wanted it with all his heart and soul. He refused to give it up. Why did he fight? Why does Aiden fight him? He’s going to lose. He will lose.
Charani would always win.
”Why do you keep fighting me?” The boy said. He was battered and bruised while the man flinched away like he was burned. It was like something had flipped in his brain.
The boy would close the distance between them. His face looked pained and sad. Almost like the look when a loved one is going through pain. He would cup the man’s cheek as he spoke. “You’re going to love me.”
This… is probably the most terrifying thing he could have done. He is so assured of his victory. His mind won’t allow any other way. He will be loved.
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familiar Familiarmckenna the african civet
played by OOC Namekimmy
short leash and a short fuse don't match,
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Post by aiden emerson on Jan 28, 2023 0:54:44 GMT -7
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a dream is a wish your heart makes ✨
[attr="class","locbody"] his dreamer and a prince[break][break] Who's the true doll here? Snapping and breaking. Being battered by two very different forces to stay in line with very different purposes. Realization, and idealization. He cannot stand idle for long. It's manifests in painful twinges in his eyes, ringing in his ears. Speak. Speak. Carry out that purpose with which you will help- save- protect. [break][break] That horrible abyss, that imitated of anger falters. A hand cups his cheek and he nearly falls over. So unhappy, so desperate. He speaks, and nearly chokes at what follows. [break][break] ̵͈̋"̷͚̙͛̈́ỳ̶̼͙̟o̷͉͇̎͒͐ủ̶̱̰͖'̶̦̂̍͗d̵̙̥̂̅͘ ̸̮͊ͅc̶̣̠͍̓̽ȑ̴̢͈͠y̵̻̍̐̕.̸̨͈̠̀̽ ̵͓͍̓̆̕I̸̥͋̄ͅ'̵̱̗͛͂d̴͈́ ̸͙̮̠̏͝r̴̖̐̅ȩ̷̳̃̓m̶̪̲͛͜i̷̢̓̅ň̵̠̙̄̀d̴̨͓̳̃ ̷̳̫͊̂̏ÿ̷͉̝̱́o̵͖̊ȗ̵͔̯͍ ̴͍̂̏̿ò̷̳̝̿́f̷̻͔̳̽-̷̯̹́̆̕ ̸̫̯̠̊̎o̷̜̚f̷͖̫͐̀̾ ̴̺͍͚͒̊s̵͚̝̪̊̉̈́o̷̢̤̗̎m̸̻̅e̵̝̞͗t̵̮̯̓̈̋ẖ̶͊̅̅i̶̲̾̓n̵͍̆̀̿g̶̠̼̣͝"̶̢̅̈ ̶̤̭̯̀͠ [break][break] His face switches between different emotions, eyes nearly blinded. "Admit it. Admit-" he is silenced by Charani's words, struggling to breathe. [break][break] "̸̻̞͌w̴̡̰͈̉h̸̡̩͎̄̉͛ȧ̶͈̣͖ẗ̸̥͓́̇̆e̶̮̲͌v̵͉̤͌̀̇ȇ̶̗̬̱r̶͖̀͝.̶̠̏̌̚.̸̯͆̀.̴̯̘̒͋ẗ̸̻̝̻͒̒h̴̘́̓į̸͎̬̆̒s̶̢̅̄̕ ̸̛̥̦͛ỉ̵͔̌s̶̱͔̗͝,̵̺͋̈͒ ̷̥̿Í̷̱̭̮̍ ̵̤̺̈́̈́̆c̸̪͍̓̌͌͜a̶̮̅̐n̷͇̗͠ͅ'̷͎̞̟̄ť̶̘͆͑ ̸̡̛͎͊̓ŝ̷̲̎u̵̟̗͊s̴͕͑͌͒t̴̲͍͚̅̄̐a̴͕̠̔̽ḯ̵̘̀n̷̮̪͕̽̀̌ ̵̖̎̒̾ï̸̛̛̮ţ̴͎͐͆.̵͕͒"̴̠͖̽̓͘ ̵̭̓̄̃
̴͍̰̙͒͒ [break][break] That's not him. That's not his purpose. He drops to his knees, hands on Charani's shoulders. The fight not stop, facts and fantasy colliding dangerously. He does not know what to think. He wants to love, but he knows this will hurt them. Charani's determination is winning. He is deaf to their pleas. Charani is bruised, but he is on his knees in supplication. [break][break] [break][break] [attr="class","sleft"]your heartaches [attr="class","sleft"]lose [attr="class","sleft"]you will [attr="class","sleft"]in dreams[break][break] [newclass=".loccont"]background: var(--secondbg); color: var(--iconcolor); font-family: "Jost"; font-size: 13px; line-height: 1.8; width:520px; margin: 0 auto; box-sizing: border-box; } .loctitle { text-align:center; font-weight:bold; font-size:20px; border-bottom:1px solid var(--thirdbg); color: white; font-size: 20px; text-transform: uppercase; letter-spacing: 0.1em; box-sizing: border-box; padding:2em; margin-bottom:1em; box-shadow: inset 0 0 0 1000px rgba(18, 18, 30, 0.7); background-size: cover; background-position: center; } .locbody { padding:2em 3em 3em 3em; text-align:justify; } .locbody span { background-color:var(--mainbg); padding:0.2em 1em; float:right; margin:0 0.2em; } .locbody span:first-child { margin-right: 0;} .locbody b { color:var(--hovericoncolor);[/newclass] |
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familiar FamiliarTeddy the Pomeranian
played by OOC NameVodka
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Post by Charani Delacour on Jan 28, 2023 1:04:38 GMT -7
Both are merely puppets of a broken boys heart. One trying desperately to get him to realize what he’s doing is wrong. To admit it. The other, stronger force denies. We most gain his love… even if it’s by force.
He watched as the man put his hands on his shoulder, kneeling down in front of him as if a great weight and pressure was forced on him. This was what he desired. You don’t need anything else. My love is enough.
”You will love me.” The boy said, hand under the man’s chin as he forced his face towards him. He would force their lips together. It was commanding. It was possessive.
The boy wouldn’t close his eyes. Every eye was in him. It felt like more than just one pair. It was like thousands of eyes stared from every angle.
The feeling of being trapped. There is no escape. My love is everywhere. Inescapable. You cannot run. You cannot hide. And soon… neither can he.
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familiar Familiarmckenna the african civet
played by OOC Namekimmy
short leash and a short fuse don't match,
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Post by aiden emerson on Jan 28, 2023 1:27:48 GMT -7
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a dream is a wish your heart makes ✨
[attr="class","locbody"] his dreamer and a prince[break][break] His breathing is shallow, glimpses of painful memory flashing between Charani and his vision. His voice is weak, and he clings so desperately to his dreamer trying to make him realize- to understand. Words fire, reverberating, echoing. All fuzzy and warbled, all booming and painful. [break][break] "̸̫̄ȧ̵̛̲͠l̷͇̏l̷͎͈̏̋ ̷̙̩̙́I̷̯̾̍̚ͅ ̵̡̤̹͐r̶̬̖̯̃͋ḙ̶̾͛̆a̶͇̋͋̕l̶̡̊̾̂ĺ̸͇̝̝̀ỳ̴͖͗ ̶̱͍͕̀͂̾c̴͕̀a̶͕̳̰͗͌̋u̶̝̮͛s̴̰͠ė̵͎̲ ̸̮̳̈́͛̕y̴̩̮͗ͅỏ̷̖̲̼u̷̗͌ ̷͎̻̳̂ï̴̡̼̩̑s̷̥͉͠ ̸͍͚͐d̸̻́͛̀į̷̠͋̀s̷̬̒̓ṱ̷̹̤̓͝ṛ̵̤̗̿e̶͙͠s̶͖͔̽̚s̸̪̈́͜.̸̎̈ͅ"̵͕̍̔̐ ̶̱̟̌̕ ̶͈̱͇̇͋̍ ̶̨̈́͑͠ [break][break]
̷̡͔̪́̈́
̵̜̣͘͠"̸̲̾̿w̷̟̤̤̑h̸͓̉o̴͓̣̭̒̽͑ ̸̨̜̑h̸̗͍̃̿͝u̵͓̳͐r̴̞̳̽̚t̶̤̍͂̎ ̷̡̛̳̿̈́y̶̧͋̿͒o̸͔̖͇͋͂ṳ̵͖̒̅.̷̰̼̑̚"̶̧̦̋ [break][break]
̶̩̘̀
̷̻̐̂͛"̷̲͌̐Í̶̡̛͖ ̶͇̼̀̑̕d̴̰͔̣̄͛o̴̞̹͈͂n̷̥̗͑'̷̱͌̄̇t̶̘̄ ̶͈̙̀͜e̷̜̯͑̿͝ͅv̸̲͂e̵̘͋̊ň̴̛̳̼̀ ̸̧̘̲̚k̶̢͔͓̓̐͘n̴͇̭̍͋ȍ̷̻̣̖̈́ẅ̸̪͓̠́ ̴͉͔̾̋͝ͅy̴̺̫̩͒͐̌o̷̤̎u̵͕̓.̸̝͓̝́́̑"̴̻̼̳́ [break][break]
̶͎̰̮͛͗
̶̬͈̞̉͊̀"̴̧̰͉͆̊I̷̗̎ ̴̯̪͠č̸̡̪a̸͇̓͑̋n̴̨̏'̷͈̅t̴̛̬̭͠ ̷̥͎̏f̵̤̖̓ĭ̸̧̮x̵̦̼̀͑̒ ̸͇̯́̽̌i̸̹̞̅ṭ̵̡́̽ͅ.̴̲͚̈̓̌"̸̢̼̈ [break][break] A Prince reveals his true form, just a pathetic wind up doll. Sweet words replaces by whatever the hell this domain needs him to say. The ruse is dropped, a last ditch effort to break through wall after wall of escapism. Words grow louder, the body convulses with the power of memory. It's speeding up. Desperate, pleading. [break][break] "̴̛̼̳D̶̺͓̼̄r̶͉͊͒ȅ̵͎͔̥͊̊ă̴͚m̵̨̼͔͋͘s̴̭̞͎̎̈͊ ̴̲̼̞̾ǎ̶̧̆ŕ̵͕̪̻͂̐e̸̢̢̹̍́̀n̶̬̗̊͗̒'̸̢̘̬̈͘͝ṱ̵̹͓̈̀ ̴̠̭̠̍̋̿à̵̧̱̮ ̴͍̀r̵̜͑͝ẽ̷͙̯̜f̵̖̳̉̿́ͅl̵̢̕͝ḝ̴̤̼̈́̂c̵̢̥̍̓̋ẗ̶͚͖́ị̶̑o̷̻̍ņ̸͎̩́̽͊ ̶̧̥̱̃ŏ̴̫̭̭̔f̴̠͑̈́ ̵̺̥͑͌͐ŕ̴͈̩͎e̴̩̤̬̽̿a̷̰͆l̵̨̪̀̑̄i̸͍̎̌t̷̢̐̈́y̴͈̩͆̕.̵̨̤͔̅"̷͕̺̍̅ͅ [break][break]
̵͉̓
̷̠̜͌̅̿"̸͖͖̔Ć̴̠̫a̵̗̎̀̚ṋ̸̽̉̓'̶̯̮͗t̵̡̓͜ ̷̦̭̒͌͝y̸̠̣͓̓́̈́ó̷̝̅̚ũ̵͔͎̒ ̸̤͈̈́j̷͉̱͐̇u̶̹͆s̵̡̰̍̈͠t̴̮̑ ̵̡̹̿̆ä̵̮̠̤̓̈c̷͇̩͛̕c̵͓̰̾ė̴̢̻͜p̴͖̿ţ̸̈́-̴̬͆͒̈́"̵̤͖͌ ̴̠̫̤̊̈́ [break][break]
̶͖́̏͌
̵̜̐"̶͍̹͆C̴̥͊͐ẖ̵̡̨̎͘a̷͎̍̓r̶̡͓̈́̚ȁ̴̡̼͛ņ̶̭̩́̈ĩ̸̡͈͝ͅ,̷̢̰̦̅͌ ̴͚̪̏͐t̷͕̤̃ȟ̶̡̙̖̓͛á̸͇͇̟́͝t̵̖̼̖̀'̶̤̾s̶͔̽ ̸͕͉͖̌̈́͝n̸̢͂̎ȏ̶͕͆̌ţ̸̚ ̵̢́̀́Ṃ̵͕̈̎͗Ŷ̸̠ ̷̯̈́̓P̸̣̟̱̾R̶̨͇̮̔O̷̢͈͒B̶͔͗̒̈́L̵̯̭̩͝E̵̽́͜M̵̖͗̆͘!̵̡̰̼̀!̷͎̓̀"̶̧́ͅ [break][break]
̸͓̙̰̿̉
̷̜̾͘͠"̴͖̭͗̎Ḯ̶̻̥͂͗ ̵̠̟̰̽̇w̸̡̠͖͑͋͌i̸̟͓͒͘ͅl̶̲̓͝ĺ̶̘̐̕ ̴̻̮̻͝b̷͖͓͈̀̅ę̶̠̠̈́̋ā̷̢̮t̴͈̘̪͒ ̵̫̠̀t̷̨̫̏h̸̫͕͒̎͛e̸͇͐̑̌ ̶͎͝͠e̵͔͋͘v̸͓̿̚ḛ̶̔r̶̭̞̘̊̍ ̸͇̓͒ľ̵͙̗̰ö̸̰́͠v̷̞͆͊͘ï̷̂͛ͅn̷̖͚̰͗g̴̯̜̗̒̓̈ ̵̫̼̋s̴̝̮̫͂̉̂h̴͕͇͂͘ì̸̞̉t̶̠̥̎̎̏-̸̢̛͇̒͌"̵̢̡̗̀ [break][break] Charani's words interrupt his own. In the echoing, the booming, the buzzing there is suddenly silence. Charani does not need to scream. His words are gentle, final. There is a gasp, the sound of air escaping a Prince's lungs. Lips meet lips, and it is warm. Warm and soft and right. The shaking stops. His grip releases. His eyes close. If he is aware of a million eyes watching him he does not seem to notice. Gloved hands gently reach up towards Charani's own cheeks, cupping his face once more like before. He doesn't rise, he only sighs. Loving, quiet, resigned. [break][break] [attr="class","sleft"]your heartaches [attr="class","sleft"]lose [attr="class","sleft"]you will [attr="class","sleft"]in dreams[break][break] [newclass=".loccont"]background: var(--secondbg); color: var(--iconcolor); font-family: "Jost"; font-size: 13px; line-height: 1.8; width:520px; margin: 0 auto; box-sizing: border-box; } .loctitle { text-align:center; font-weight:bold; font-size:20px; border-bottom:1px solid var(--thirdbg); color: white; font-size: 20px; text-transform: uppercase; letter-spacing: 0.1em; box-sizing: border-box; padding:2em; margin-bottom:1em; box-shadow: inset 0 0 0 1000px rgba(18, 18, 30, 0.7); background-size: cover; background-position: center; } .locbody { padding:2em 3em 3em 3em; text-align:justify; } .locbody span { background-color:var(--mainbg); padding:0.2em 1em; float:right; margin:0 0.2em; } .locbody span:first-child { margin-right: 0;} .locbody b { color:var(--hovericoncolor);[/newclass] |
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familiar FamiliarTeddy the Pomeranian
played by OOC NameVodka
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Post by Charani Delacour on Jan 28, 2023 8:55:49 GMT -7
The little doll cries, yet its voice is drowned out. It tries to speak truth and reject this fallacious thinking but it is silenced. Do not speak of such things. The truth has no place here.
The boy holds the little doll. His eyes glazed over and showing no emotions. His eyes look empty inside, hollow like the puppet.
”Shhh. It’s okay. Sleep now. He’ll love me in time.” The doll would feel sleepy until at last it returned to being a simple doll. They would go through these kinds of things night after night. The result is never quite the same but it always ends the same way.
He cannot be reasoned with.
tag aiden emerson
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familiar Familiar
played by OOC Name
creative monkey
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Post by cila on May 29, 2023 15:12:59 GMT -7
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AU THREAD COMPLETE
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